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kokboon7- November 27th, 12:20
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nice song with meaningful lyrics. :)
yes! i'm out. special thanks to the Hari Raya festival. this week is short but it was hell for me. booked in on sunday night. i thought i could have a good rest. end up, we were late by 1 minute to turn off the light. we got turn out by the officers and had a little phyiscal session. oh crap. monday was worse, had IPPT in the afternoon when i'm totally shagged out, got badly "educated" by the officiers again, running here and there, rifle over head, jumping jacks and the most popular ones, knock it down. the ordeal was not all, it doesn't end there. we got the same shit on tuesday as well. wednesday, had our 16km route march. had fever running at 39 during the last 4 click rest point after cooling down. didn't wan to miss it thus, i just carried on. nearly fainted along the way but luckily, i have nice sgts and platoon mates to look out for me, holding on to me when i tell them i really going to faint anytime. proud of myself that i managed to walked all the way back to the parade square before i report sick. took my temperature and it's still high. was allowed to bathe early and had a good night rest. MO gave me a 3 days MC all the way till sat.
was really glad when i saw my dad at pasir ris, for i know i can really rest during the ride back home. thanks dad. you are also busy yet you just find time to pick me up to save me the hassle of squeezing with everyone on public transport. thanks so much.
too medicine and my cousin picked me up for supper. headed over to east coast, nice atmosphere with great local taste of food. got rojak and share with the rest and ate some stingray. my throat got worse. xiao mei came over too, with a little surprise from her. ha. she asked me to drive all the way back to AMK. so excited to drive on the road and yet i'm so scare that something might happen. her honda fit really make till damn nice, all the work of her boyfriend. ha. maybe i'm too nervous, she said i dun dare to step on the accelerator. ha. but luckily we came back 1 piece ah~ haha. more practice. :) i did parking on my own too. not too bad for first timer i guess. at least it slot in nicely and it's straight. ha. looking forward to more driving session with my sister soon! :D tada~
time to go get some rest. bye readers :) if you read, leave some comments alright, at least i know someone reads it and i'm not talking to the air. haha. :) ever changing weather, take good care of yourself people :)
Adjust yourself to an ever changing route while holding on to unchanging principle.
- 2 more weeks to POP! :)
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- kokboon7
- November 22nd, 11:16
bouncy
time flies. it really does. having enlisted for 7 weeks already. it just seems like a few days ago. personally i feel it's very interesting. nah, do away with the training part. it's interesting in the sense that many of us came from different walks of life, coming together willingly or unwillingly just to serve the nation. after shaving our heads everyone really looked alike. perhaps that's why they called us to treat each other like brothers. ha. met different kinds of people, people with different characteristic. there's people who only function infront of the sgt and sirs, people who joke their way through the weeks, people who keep pushing themselves to the limit not wanting to give up and people who will always be there lending u a helping hand when u are in need. i'm really glad that i found myself a big group of fun and motivating platoon mates who will always help each other in need. especially myself, when i needed help in training my physical strength, they will always be the ones who will train together with me, giving me tips for the technique to be used. when my morale hit the rock bottom when i'm tired or i cant complete a task, they were there to pat me on my shoulder and tell me we are in this together.
a quite relax week so far. had life range. so excited yet trying to be very careful in handing the live rounds. didn't want to misfire or hurt anyone during the shoot. damn crap, i missed my marksmanship test on the first day. damn sad, and i'm super pai seh to say i'm a marksman representing my school for shooting competition. went back the second day for reshoot. i made it. :) went back and had plenty of slacking time. didn't really wan to slack the way through, after cleaning my rifle, i went to train for the station my weakest in IPPT, chin up station. just didn't have the strength to do 6. oh man. i need more training. ;(
thanks to my platoon sgt again, he let me out for my driving test on friday. :) he even took the effort to give me tips for the test, telling me to relax myself and just do when i usually do during lesson. cool or wat. ha. and yes, i passed my TP :) with 6 dermit points. 3 similar mistakes, fail to check mirror while turning. -.-" ha. super dumb but i'm really nervous man. got a nice tester who keep talking to me to keep myself relax. suddenly i feel that my luck is changing, for the better. i'm starting to meet nice people who helped me along the way. :) booked back in in the evening for physical training on saturday, with fever running at 38.5. mum and dad were super worried. they sent me all the way to SAF Ferry Terminal. managed to make it through the training despite the fever and i'm really happy that i didn't let my fever as an excuse to get away.
slacked my day through saturday. lots of rest, didn't want to go out even though people have been dragging me out. ha. caught my favourite 终极三国 again. never fails to make me laugh out loud. hopping from site to site, i came across a new taiwan drama show, casting Luo Zhi Xiang and Rainie Yang, 海派甜心. only 3 episode up so far. it's very funny. shall spend my time watching this 2 drama during my weekends. :)
oh man, IPPT tomorrow.
- 3 and half weeks more. (:
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- kokboon7
- November 15th, 14:34
crazy
i'm back to my blog again. ha. did anyone miss me? haha! got to book out on friday. Situational Test outfield was fun. weather was super warm, several of us suffered heat exhaustion. but i'm really glad i pulled it through. somehow, i just feel my mentality got stronger weeks by weeks. Situational Test was easy for me because it's really hands on PBL. Several Ideas i gave doesn't required any equipments, seems crappy but it's workable. it's funny to see everyone so serious thinking of solution when i'm just taking it lightly. oh well.. just managed to get to know myself a little more everything, feels good. :)
3 and half weeks more to my big day. 8th Dec is the day. :) it's live range up next. i'm super looking forward to it. :) IPPT and then i'm out of Tekong for good. :) super looking forward. but i hope my knee doesn't give way before that. i dunno if it's psychological effect or it's physically painful. i hope i'm just not finding excuse for a easier alternative. major events have all passed, it's really good to reminisce but it's never good to think about the shit we went through. sieve out the good memories from the bad. :)
just when i'm getting along well with everyone in my platoon, we are going to part again. it's going to be different after this, might not be seeing everyone that often after that. but i'm glad that i've found a group of motivating friends, full of drive and never give up attitude. no doubt at certain point of time, everyine will feel like giving up but there's always a different someone who will stand up and give everyone a push. i dunno but i just like that kind of feeling. :) i guess i really dislike seperation. oh man.~
haven been really talking to Alan. but i hope he's been doing well, hard to meet up because we are booking in differently. but shall ask him out after POP! got to meet up with Eugene too. our malaysia lepak trip. and Aloy, his birthday is coming soon. it's on the same day with buddy. 112588 is really a day with many people birthdays huh! :) shall meet up with him after he's back from Taiwan with his Commando Training.
for the last few weeks, i really realised wat do i want in this 2 years. giving up the thought of going command school. it's not that wanted to run away from it, or i fear the challenge, it's just that my knee could not really take it anymore. i'm straining it everyday, doing high jumps, alternative leg thrust, and many more. i guess i'm not fated to get to a position of a commander. downing pes might be suitable for me. well, shall see how.
met up with RP ballers yesterday for a short getaway. as usual they met up for Mahjong, for me, i just sat there and watch TV, watch soccer till morning. it's a little lame but it's the fun that counts. :) more of such meeting please people :)
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- kokboon7
- November 8th, 11:31
i'm back from field camp. it was a eventful 6 days camp. started by booking in last sunday for preperation work. started off from a 8km road march to the destinated site. pace was alright. wasn't that tiring at all. reached the site, had my first combat ration. taste heavenly for the first few bites, didn't really eat alot because i dun wan to shit in those environment due to the bugs that was hover on top of ur shit before it even came out. it rained when we are building our tent. i was caught unprepared. mentally unprepared. muds all over my body, i'm so dirty, so not used to it. went for some activities and it's called a day. had to powder bath, where we just powder our body with powder rather than with water. slept in the went tent and till the next morning.
next morning, i woke up with bites on my arms, i'm super irritated. any slight knock from anyone can spark me off anytime. however things were fine, cooked maggie in field. great experience, soup was super tasty, times spent there was really good with all my buddies around. :) things went sour when it started to rain again at night. arghhh.
started off the 3rd day well. other than the mosquito bites i got heat rash. i'm feeling super uncomfortable. things went bad for me. i took off my shirt to ask my friend if there's bugs on my back or heat rash. a familiar voice was heard shouting from another side of the field. he used really harsh tone. as a normal human, of course emotions came in. maybe i was in the wrong, i took it down. had an heated arguement with him because of somethings he said. i threw my rifle on the ground. everyone was shock. i threatened to bring this case to mindef to see who's in the wrong. another sgt came to talk to me. telling me lots of craps. well, they covered up for each other. =/
things didn't went off well for me after that, they really made us got ourselves dirty and muddy. i really couldn't take it. if they wanted me to feel how fortunate i am outside, they got their aim. lots of factors, happenings got our morale really down, to the rock bottom. before the final activity, some bug bit my eye. it's super uncomfortable, so painful. i couldn't take it anymore and reported sick. was send to the doctor at the medical centre. was diagonsed with some eye disorder infection. had to be kept under observation in the sickbay for 2 days. it swell like some ping pong ball size.
booked out on saturday and i'm home. till now, there's still blood clot in my eye and my vision is really blur for now. i really hope things will be fine.
- 3rd book out. :)
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- kokboon7
- October 31st, 14:09
crappy
it's the 3rd one. :) it's been an eventful week for me. so many things happen. got to know something before i book in last sunday. no doubt, was a little affected but i'm fine. :) trainings have been slightly better this week. got longer admin time because parents complaint that we do not have enough rest. :) had live grenade throw on thursday. it's really once in a life time. could feel the impact. cool shit. got to try the practice one. nothing impressive. thanks to my platoon sergeant, i got to throw 2. :) the live throw was really damn cool. ^^V
after which, we have been learning something called the urban ops. it's just another great experience. we always see how those elites clear the rooms and all. i got my hands on this kind of experience. form a team with kunrong and darren. champions lah us. we got lots of stunts. haha.
oh ya, platoon sergeant told me and kun rong that, due to our cockness in the platoon, CSM is aiming us. siao liao. hahaha! but he's a nice guy lah. just very fierce and very kuku most of the times. haha. i got to be the "joy" of the sergeants this week. singing songs that shoot them, i got pumped. the most happening one is on thursday night. i wanted to bathe fast, so i brought my towels, shampoo and showing gel with me. he checked my bag and he said since i'm going to bathe, he's going to make me sweat. did 20 diamonds push up, 20 counts of 4 jumping jacks, 20 counts of 4 flutter kicks and 20 counts of 4 crunches. i got up and i just say vroom, they ask me go run. omg! haha. it's super funny but it's tiring.
field camp coming up next. will be out on saturday :) hope these 6 days will pass soon and please dun rain.
a valuable yet eventful week for me. i fell at the SOC ground. i was taught to stand up myself. blisters on both my palm tore, it bleed. injuries all over. and my old problem is back. my knees are aching again. :( oh well.
training to be soldiers, fight for our land, once in our life, 1 year and 10 months. :)
- basketball :)
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- kokboon7
- October 25th, 11:17
chipper
stayed at home the whole day yesterday. sleep and sleep and more sleeping is wat i've done. ha. still 6 plus, vincent called and i decided to join him to play basketball at AMK CC even though i was still coughing. headed down to hub to get some work done. lost all my ball sense. but i felt i'm much stronger in terms of stamina and strength. it was great to play basketball once again. shall make 1 day for balling every week :)
a super out dated but yet a well known character from the comic Slam Dunk. Hanamichi Sakuragi. haha. someone who i like the most in the comic maybe because of his funny personality. haha. i looked abit like him because of my botak now. hahaha. well....
alright, it's time to rest again. booking in at 1930. :) till then, take care everyone :)
i'll always wonder how you are doing, if everything's fine for you. i guess i still miss you a little.
- 2nd book out :)
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- kokboon7
- October 24th, 12:19
sick
天使的距离。 chance upon this song when i was watching 终极三国 today. nice lyrics and melody :)
alright, i'm out for my 2nd book out. time flies. it really does. it's 3 weeks for my days in tekong. 6 more weeks to POP. recently, the PES C came in. happen to witness the whole thing. i remembered how i parted with my parents at the cook house, how i went in with my Platoon Sgt to my Company, everything. it made me realised time really hurried past without me knowing in. maybe it's due to the hectic routine i had inside, i lost track of time. coming up next would be my live genrade throw, field camp, live range, IPPT, SOC and then preperation for POP. i'm so looking forward to all these, it's really once in a lifetime experience. :)
i'm slowly to like the things i do inside, i have great bunk mates who done things together, covering each other's ass, knocking it down together under the hot sun at the parade square, marching from point to point with the songs i composed by changing the lyrics. :) had Navy and AirForce Talk last 2 days. a great one. i guess i know my direction of life after that. i've found motivation to work even harder to get into OCS. Might sign on with Airforce for the scholarship for my uni and a 4 years bond after that. it's my current plan for now. shall take a longer time to consider the offer first. :)
had a taste of the so called "playground" which was the SOC in Tekong. it was nice. having the first 4 obstacles training techniques, the last 7 training confidence and bravery. ha. need to get fitter man. i want to pass my IPPT. :( i lost 5 kg man. more to come please!
had a 6km road march last monday. it's much better already. starting to get used of the pace :) singing songs, making funny sounds along the way makes the fatigue stay away. pushing ourselves further, we went for another 4km road march. was super tiring but it's effective. :) my endurance level really went up. need more strength training for my arms and legs. really glad that i have great training buddy, darren, great talking cock buddy, kunrong that keep my day pass soon. haha. 3 of us were always seen together everywhere, from meals all the way to trainings. go go go, Ninja Warriors :)
came back as a sick boy. =/ having fever and cough since wednesday till now. didn't want to report sick cause i didn't wan to go back for Remedial Trainings. sorry that i got Mum worried.
oh ya, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FELICIA CHIN :) haha!
- quiz
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- kokboon7
- October 17th, 23:57
last night as a civilian before i book in tomorrow. had a long day out with Aloy. met up at hougang mall for lunch at subway. bus to beach road for our army stuffs. walked to bugis then to rocher for beancurd, then to Plaza Singapura for getting the rest of the items. combed the whole town area for Dettol Body Powder but we can't find any. met up with Sao Fei at Kovan for dinner and back home. :)
did this quiz online. it's pretty true i guess.Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
well, time to go get some rest. it's book in day tomorrow. :) good night people! :)
today, my heart skipped a beat but i thought i saw you. but it wasnt you. i guess i really miss you.
- BACK!~
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- kokboon7
- October 17th, 12:45
Valentine, Jim Brickman.
hello everyone. i'm back from tekong for a small break. will be booking back in tomorrow early morning. got into Ninja Company. a company that is very well known for it's crazy-ness in trainings, the intensity and the xiong-ness in the exercises we do. i'm consider lucky because i'm in platoon 1, where i a very nice platoon sgt, commander and also a room of great bunk mates. these 11 days i spent inside, i made lots of new friends, learnt many things. it's really a valuble lesson taught to me. a weak mentality often makes everything impossible before they were done. i learnt this, i kept it in my mind. at times i feel like giving up on the trainings, but i thought of my goals, i wanted to be a commander. my sgt was there to spur me on, my buddies were there to encourage me to push myself a bit more. all these were the things that kept me going for the last 11 days. it's like a big family inside.
whenever people asked me what company i'm in, i said Ninja. they said i'm going to die inside. yes, no doubt, the things we do are really super tiring, running with field packs, IVB, rifle and long 4. but it really trained me up. i clock 9.4 seconds for shuttle runs, 250cm for standing broad jump, 11 + for 2.4km rum, 45 sit ups in a minute, 1 pull up. chin up was my killer. i'm trying my best to train harder to score at least a silver for my IPPT test soon. all these trainings, the thought of it makes me wanting to give up. till 1 day, we were brought to the Tekong Parade Square. i pictured myself standing there after 9 weeks. i wanted to leave Tekong with my head high and with pride. this is the main motivation i that kept me going. 2 weeks down. 7 more to go. good luck to me.
thanks to my sister for fetching me from discovery centre yesterday and to town for my pay collection. made a trip down to Tangs. i miss everyone there. ha. had a great chat with them and head home for a nice dinner. i'm starting to cherish and appreciate things more. people said i became for tanned, and my voice is super sexy from all the shouting and singing in Tekong. haha! JIA YOU TO ME.
NINJA COMPANY SLOGAN: Do What Is Right, Not What Is Convenient. Victory Belongs To Those Who Dare To Dream And Make The Dreams Come True.
- 再见
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- kokboon7
- October 5th, 14:01
weird
today's recommendation. 再见. a song which really describe my feelings now. there's still fear in me, i dunno if i will return safely. yes, i might be thinking too much but there's many cases that happened already, i can't help but to feel insecure. that explains why i'm so down these few days. i'm sorry if i've shown attitude to anyone.
yes, i've just cut my hair. it's super ugly. =/ i miss my fringe, my sideburns. =/ no doubt it's lighter much more cooling but it doesn't look good on me. =/ what to do, i got no say in this. because of this, i shall stay at home whenever i book out till my hair is suitable for viewing. pardon me for being vain, but who doesn't want to look good? and if you know me well, you should know how important it is to me.
as the uncle is shaving my hair, my heart really sank. it took me so so long to grow and maintain it. yet it's all off my head in 10 minutes. at a point of time, i really wanted to stand up and run away. i dunno how to say but i never felt good at that point of time.
my new idol, 曾沛慈. haha. it's the first time that attracted to girls with short hair. LOL! haha.
today, it shall be my last post before i enlist into Tekong. An island that every guy have to go through.
- second last post :)
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- kokboon7
- October 4th, 16:42
restless
苦茶.
just happen to come across this song while my younger sister is watch some drama on her laptop. quite nice :) so, tada! hahaha.
just finish watching 终极三国 on youtube. it's the end of Season 2. Season 3 coming up soon. 32 episode so far, means i've been watching this for 32 weeks. quite long huh?! although it's lame but still the show never fails to have ending which keeps me looking forward to the next episode. it's also a good show to watch if you are feeling down because there's really some real funny parts in each episode. (:
had been going out these few days, playing basketball, self training, movies and many more. now my body are aching all over from the push ups i'm doing everyday. thought of increasing the reps but i dun feel motivated at all. awww.caught a movie which is something something meatball. it's a very nice one. we paid a price for the things we wanted. nice movie with meaningful insights. Probia 2 with Alan and KweeMei's group. crap show, i fell asleep. lousy movie with no endings. no worth watching. went over to Carol's birthday celebration after that with Alan. had a good time catching up with Shuting, Mel, Kylie and my little buddy Sheryl. ha. went off around 11 plus, went over to lower seletar to meet mummy and my relatives for mooncake festival. had a great time there. reach home at 1 plus, bathe, online awhile and slept.
so lazy to move my legs today, so i thought of not running today. i just want to stay at home and nua my day off. will be going for running tomorrow and joining the rest for basketball session after that at kovan. it's really fast, i'm enlisting on tuesday. 2 more days to go. i'm going to miss my parents and everything i had a home. awww! i'm having lots of mixed feelings. so many things i wanted to say. but... :/
1 thing is for sure, i miss my hair, i miss the long long tail i had. :/
shall go rest awhile first. will be going out with dinner with my family later on.
some things changed but some things never changed. you are still the one i think about all day long. still can't help but to have the curiousity to find out how are you doing. it's going to be a long long time before i'm going to get to see you again. take great care of yourself and all the best for your exams. i miss you, i really do.
- byebye to tangs.
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- kokboon7
- September 30th, 23:21
- bouncy
it's song sharing time. haha. quite an old song but this song never fails to make me move to the beat. haha.
today, i finally bid goodbye to tangs for good i guess. really had a nice time over there. i was so looking forward to today, but when time draws nearer, i'm feeling a little she bu de. i really had a great time over there. today, basically, i didn't work much. i went touring around tangs (as usual), crapping with the staffs that just like any other days, went for a super long lunch at Lucky Plaza and i had the yummy chicken rice. Mr Pan came over, talked to me. as usual, our way of communicating is by arguing. haha. nevertheless, his attitude towards work had mould my character, which is never be satisfied with but i have but keep climbing. Jennifer came over too. had a great chat with her. Jennifer is a like a big sister to me, guiding me along the way, crapping with me online, gossiping about the boss, motivating me when my morale was hit badly and many many other things. wanna say a big big thank you to this sister of mine for everything, giving me the job, giving me a chance to try and test my ability and taking care of me this younger brother. :) thanks sister yunyun. :) a big goodbye to tangs, the friends i've made there and most importantly, the headphones who went through thick and thin with me for these 6 months. :) i guess i really dislike parting, dislike saying goodbye. the goodbye today seems to be the hardest thing all these while. i feel my reluctance to say goodbye to Mr Pan, Jennifer and everyone there. oh man....
i'll be going for my national service in less than a week. so many things to do, yet so many time. when i still have months before i enlist, i dun feel the sense of urgency. oh man. will be having mass physical training these few days. here's my schedule.
Thursday - morning 4km jog (10 - 11)
- head down to tangs to return my stuffs
- meeting Chi and the rest for jogging at 4 at NYP.
- basketballing at 5.30 at kovan.
- dinner at 10pm.
- strength training at night.
Friday - 4km jog again.
- back home for a rest.
- meet Chi and the rest for light lunch.
- out at night with Jacq and the rest for singing session.
- strength training at night.
Saturday - 4km jog.
- meet Alan at 11am.
- beach road to get the army necessarily stuffs.
- Carol's 21st celebration.
- might be going down to Lower Seletar Dam with my family for MoonCake Celebration.
- strength training at night.
Sunday - 4km jog
- meeting Aloy, Saofei, Saoyi for gathering.
- family dinner before i enlist.
- strength training again.
Monday - rest
- Botak time. =/
- good night rest.
Tuesday - 8.30am, see you at Tekong.
wonder why i'm so into jogging? haha. it's because i dun wan to die inside army. yes, people will ask me not to think too much, but still we can't deny the fact that there's people who had died during trainings. so i feel the need to strengthen my body and endurance level. i'm looking super forward to army, lots of excitment and curiousity but yet i'm feeling nervous when the thought of enlisting sets in. how sucky can things get when i only get to go out on weekends, how sucky can it get when there's so many rules and regulations as an NS man. how sucky can it get when i'm out on saturday but i have to get in on sunday night. =/ awwww!
maybe you wouldn't read this blog, but still i miss you dearly. maybe you didn't know how i smile when you talked to me on msn last night.i miss you, silly girl.
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- kokboon7
- September 24th, 23:28
energetic
got this song from 终极三国, 够爱。a pretty nice song. the vocal of this singer is super good. OMG!~ enjoy~
last few days at work. i'm really enjoying myself there. playing xbox, and for the last week. i'm playing stunts already. hahaha. everyone is asking me to go back and visit them when i'm free, of course, they wanted to see my botak head. hahaha.
met up with aloy on sunday and monday. ha. we went for late night shopping on sunday. but we didn't get anything. we ended up at rochor beancurd. haha. i ordered wrongly again. the doughstick. =/ i always those 2 sticks = 1 sticks. because it's 2 that make up 1 sticks. i told the uncle i wanted 4. and he gave me 4 big ones. we were super bloated after that. talking about future, army lives, our dream girls, house, car and everything. it's really nice to go out with him for he really understands me and we had unlimited topics everytime. (: it's 1 more week for us to meet up before i really had my hair off my head. ha.
things are getting better for me. i got a new lunchmate. (: ha. we are always going for nice food at lucky plaza, far east. ha. today we went for dessert at far east. it's ice with milk. something like the ones they had in Taiwan. Jennifer had me laughing at me because the test i took in facebook. it's so super crap, i'm not a stripper lor. still, i want to say a big thank you to Jennifer. for giving me a chance, for giving me the job at Tangs. i get to know more people, i get to taste life at work, i get to learnt how to earn my keep, and of course i get to understand how hard is it to earn money and how easy to spend them in just a few days. Big Thank YOU to Jennifer, for being a big sister to me, teaching me so many things. thanks lor sister. :)
in order to prepare myself better for army, i've finally started running. i hope it not too late. been running for few days already. 4km run each time. slowly, i'm building my stamina, but not my arm strength. really hope i will get to slim down during army. i want to be fit please!
alright, it's sentosa on sunday. i've decided to work till 30th. :) 6 days to enjoy. i swear i'm going to enjoy myself to the max these few days before i lose my freedom to the country. it's really a pity cause i can't watch Felicia Chin's new show. she's a super hot mum inside. OMG!
omg, so sweet right!. hahaha! (: alright, time to go. bye. take care people (:please dont go MIA from me. can i call you at night just to hear your voice when i'm in tekong?
- rainy days.
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- kokboon7
- September 19th, 23:29
爱海滔滔。another old song. the song which i kept listening to when i was at my lowest point at that time.
试着去努力
鼓起勇气放弃你
总是不争气
没有这么快学会安静
就连眼泪时刻在提醒
根本无法放得下你
漆黑的夜晚
还是找到了我
排山倒海来袭
一定是我不够好
所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角
躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道
只要你过得很好
什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜 不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好
总有一天你会看到
爱和海掀起惊天巨涛
我会以无坚不摧地力量 让你知道
alright, shall offically start the blog update now. the last 3 morning was something that spoilt my entire day. :( it has been raining. for the first 2 days, while i was walking to the station, it started to rain. ran all the way to the station because i do not have an umbrella with me. got super drenched, and it's super cold on the train. today, although i had my umbrella with me it didn't seem to be much help. i still got drenched. oh crap. running a slight fever now. just popped 2 panadols, waiting to be asleep. it's another working day for me tomorrow. like always huh, super no life. working damn hard for money because i wanted to start saving for raining days.i realised that i'm going to miss my friends at work after i officially ended my appointment period. they really taught me alot, took really great care of me and giving me memorable moments during this short period in tangs. i'm going to miss playing FIFA 09 on the xbox with them, gossiping about the weird customers, mimicking the way people talked, them disturbing me watching my shows on youtube, asking me to go for a walk within the Orchard vincinity. alright, 1 last week to go before i bid goodbye to these nice friends i've made during this half a year in Tangs.
time to rest. goodnight people. :)today, i took out the cards you gave me. i read it through, the memories came flashing back, as much as i wanted something to happened again, i know it's not possible already. i miss everything about you, us, memories.
someone said, dont frown because you will never know who's falling for your smile.
- 20 more days.
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- kokboon7
- September 16th, 23:41
exanimate
不屑, this song is super nice (: like it.
had a great day off on sunday. met Aloy, Ming Xuan, Sao Fei and his girlfriend. we headed off to sentosa. (: as usual. i waited for them for half an hour. had a quick brunch and we headed it. took a random tram and we didn't alight. simple to say we loop 1 hour. had so much fun talking how stupid we were in secondary school. now that we have gone seperated ways, i'm glad that we managed to find time off and meet each other up. updating about our lives. especially Aloy, always finding time for us even when he's in NS. talking about NS, in 20 days time, i'm going in. that how fast time flies. after that, headed to bugis for a walk and we had steamboat for dinner, home sweet home after that. got burnt and fell sick the next day. i no longer get very very red now, but i think i got tanned. (: woooooo! i really cherish this friendship we had. ha.
talking about friendship, i came to poly, i met Alan. LOL! i still remember we didn't like each other at first sight. crap. we became good friends after that. maybe we were alittle alike in the way we talk. although i'm a few months older than him, i must say, certain things he handled them better than me. miss the times we stayed back after school to play xbox, screaming like no one business. we always complaint that we regretted not going out often back then. ha. now that we are going into army the same date. it's really nice. hope we get to meet up soon (:
-canthelpbuttobeaffected-
- 搞笑 之 五字天书
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- kokboon7
- September 10th, 23:18
omg omg~ i like this mtv alot alot :) so emo yet so meaningful. ha. it's my all time favourite. a song which i like so much when i came across in Philippines while listening to the music player on my phone. a very nice song which explains what i've been going through these 7 months. 边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好。
today, it's a special day for Aloy. he finally "POP". he's officially a Commando already. so happy for him. ha. had a chat with him on the phone. hope he will get well soon, commando.
dun think anyone will discover this. :) just wanna say i really miss you. maybe you'll never see this but i'm thinking of you. will you be my silly girl again?
- awake.
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- kokboon7
- September 9th, 2:14
awake
it's 2.30 in the morning. i'm still wide awake. i dunno what am i doing here. have been watch videos on youtube. found a few. like this clip on Luo Zhi Xiang, during some charity events in Singapore. i'm so impressed by the way he dance. ha. it's very nice.
found 1 more clip. it's a footage from Bull Fighting. Hebe's vocal is great. (:
i'm looking forward to the 27th of Sept. it's my last day of work. got to save up abit for rainy days. came to understand that money isn't that easy to earned. and given the living standards in Singapore, it's always never enough. shall save up this tiny sum of money and use it for overseas trip with Aloy and the rest.i didn't wan to trouble anyone so i chose to keep things to myself. i'm sure people are tired telling me the same thing over and over again. i've heard enough. i know it's for my good. i didn't wan to trouble anyone again. i thought i've gotten out of the mess, using work to numb myself, wanting to keep working everyday just to keep my mind occupied. i'm still concern if everything's fine for her, if she's doing well. not trying to be emo or gaining sympathy here. i dun need those. i'm seeing the picture, just when i'm doing well, the facts hit me in my face damn hard.
shall be the last few post for the blog. might be deleting this after i enter NS. or maybe... no one reads it anyway..
dun cry because it's over, smile because it happen.
- happy times always slip through us.
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- kokboon7
- September 6th, 23:23
today, i had a day off from work. woke up at 9.30. wanted to go sentosa. but the plan was cancel. damn sian. went back to sleep and chi message say wanna play ball. end up it rain. wat a day. slept till 2 in the afternoon. went for a hair cut. was so tempted to ask the auntie to shave everything off. but i didn't have to courage to. so ya, i asked her to cut till super short. wanted to "draw" lines on my head but i drop the idea. i'm going to look like a super big ah beng if i really do that. ha.saw a few young guys. it remind me of the days when i was in secondary school, the behavior really super like me when i was in secondary school. it wasn't pleasant. i'm not one of those good kid in school back then.i really saw my old self in them.
i didn't head straight home after that, i went to our favourite haunt after school. Hougang point. it really changed alot. on my way home, i chanced upon a basketball match between 2 philippinos team. ha. i sat there and watch for 2 hours. got so tempted to play ball and i rushed home, got changed and i went to play basketball myself. it was nice sweating out. :) after that, i went of a jog, didn't complete my route, i felt breathless. it's the result of not being active in exercising. ha.
Aloy, Sao Fei, Louis and I were the common names when we are in secondary 5. especially when we have Head of English and Mathematics as our subject teacher. 4 copies of the homework. it's all standard. 1 wrong all wrong, and to think we were stupid till we copy the wrong things before. crap. for example, 1942, 1 of use just copy it as 1924 and the three of us will have the same. haha. tat's how we were caught copying homework. haha. sec 5, we came up with the ideal of system roll. inspiration from the 4D we copy abit here from here, here from another person, there from another person. haha. mostly, Aloy did the work and the 3 of us just copied. ha. the good old days huh. things out of hand a few times, when we had troubles with out chinese teacher. i just told aloy 1 super lame joke and we laugh, the teacher thought we are laughing at her. made to stay back during recess but we just argue our way through. still, i can't forget about the incident when we "kope" the acrylic pole from the DnT room. ha.
i ended my free day like that. a tired but worth it experience. shall mark out a few more days and train up myself for army. it's exactly 1 month from now. :)
- worn out.
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- kokboon7
- September 5th, 11:57
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alright, i'm back here again. sorry for my updating this blog because of my busy working schedule. it's been 13 days since i got a day off. Tangs is having their sales and i'm not allow to take leave because there's no one at my counter. so yup, been working till 11 everyday. i'm so totally worn out mentally and physically. i even have to resort to going to the handicap toilet for a short nap. everyone have asked me to stop working, just go and enjoy the last few weeks of my civilian life before my army days. but i cant leave just like tat because they haven get a replacement yet. on a lighter note, i realised my dad changed ever since he knew that i'm going to get enlist on Oct 6th. he will stay up to wait for me at night, cooking yummy seafood for me and heating them up when i reach home, getting me nasi lemak for breakfast on his off days, asking me to go enjoy life during this period and going for a jog early in the morning.
i read through my old blog. i randomly started upon one of the post, i read on. i realised wat kind of person i am. it set me thinking. thinking through the comments other said to me. i realised i really have a bad personality. i'm have a very strong perfectionist character. since young, i always wanted things to be perfect for me. i wanted to win in everything i do. i hate the feeling of losing. i wanted to win, in basketball matches, in life, in games, in work, in lovelife, everything. i still remember how i threw my temper on the court because no one passed me the ball, i still remember when i was younger, i wanted to outmatch my siblings in the things we do, i remember how i wanted my love life to be, thus leading me being someone who really do not have a say in the things i do. i always set a challenge for myself, i'm always going higher and higher, once i got this, i wanted to get more. it's never enough for me. when i can't meet them, i'm damn demoralised. i realised i dun like to lose.if anyone is close enough to me, i would always ask why people dun play to lose? everyone play to win? is it really tat important? i dunno if wat i'm talking makes sense. but it really make me think through. i hope i would be a better person, someday.
i'm super looking forward to tomorrow. :) it's finally a day off from work. alright back to my Zhong Ji San Guo. will be back again.
found a song which is very nice.不屑
就让我伪装 我嘴角不屑
让孤独乘以更孤独的两倍
允许我保留最后一点点特权 赦免我想念你的心碎
如果我眼神里闪烁不屑
可能我心里一半地已经残废
那一半跟著你走远了的那一天
这一半渐渐地瓦解
如果我还有一点点不屑
别想要说服我纯洁的绝对
我只是世界上物种绝种的绝类
悄悄的失眠了一光年
如果我还有一点点不屑
那是我自己虚荣心在作祟
自以为或许我们有一天会重叠 我可以再爱你第二遍
- JIA YOU!
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- kokboon7
- August 31st, 12:03
- chipper
heh heh. i'm back again. going to get busy the next week. due to the closed door events tomorrow which is the 1st of sept, Tangs actually extended their "77th birthday celebration" to 3 days. which means 2nd and 3rd i cant get to off too. it's going to be 11pm for me in these 3 days. 4th the friday, 11pm again. dunno how i can get through these 4 days. oh crap. many people asked why i haven quit yet. it's not i dun wan. it's they dun wanna let me go. i wanted to enjoy the days before my army days yet there's nothing i can do. planned for sentosa with Chi but i can't go. really thankful to them for compromising me, changing it to saturday. so, i shall take a day off no matter wat. no more asking permission, i will just go even they dun let me go off on a weekend.
everyone have been asking about my msn nick. haha! it all happen because Jacq noes that i'm going to NS and i can't meet the rest up due to the heavy work schedule. so she said she will miss me. oh well, i'm going to miss them too. missing all the funs we used to enjoy together. thanks Jacq for giving me advices, crapping with me at night. thank so much. maybe it's too small but yup, i promise her to put this up. ha. :)
frankly speaking, i lost the interest to work also. i dunno why. maybe it's because it's my last few weeks, facing lots of unreasonable people who wanted me to let them try, after try saying thanks to me and not buying. i understand the fact in this line, we have to handle rejection but i think they were too much. trying this and that, asking me to open up from the boxes, after which leaving me the mess to clear it up. ha. i'm starting to get smart, i just told them i have no demo sets, i can't let them try. oh well, shall stop complaining. a few more weeks to go. jia you! (:
been watching this drama online at work these few days. quite a nice show. many touching and funny scenes. the one that left a very deep impression on me is the part when the girl lost the baby in the accident. very saddening. i like the plot, how they got seperated and then met again. next, i will be waiting for Zhong Ji San Guo. i watched Episode 27. they really know how to make the viewers looked forward to the next episode because there's always a climax. ha!
had a talked with Sheryl last night. she said she struggling with her studies in Aust. she's studying till 2 plus in the morning. well, work hard and jia you to you too my friend. :) help me keep my secret okie. my HEARTDISK secret. hahahah. shhh shhh. shall see u soon in Nov when u are returning for your holidays. :) take care too.
alright, i'm back to my stock taking for now.i'm right here waiting for you.
